Happiness is not no longer knocking doors of Syrians in Eid like before for pain filling their hearts and being sank in bitter memories since Eid is coming with children’s, orphans’ tears and for sure mothers’ tears. Om-saeed tears over her cheeks wetting her face while reading a poem on social media.
“All pains I can take but for parting I will never bear, every day you are with me is happy Eid to me, today is Eid and you are far away from me which turns life to death to me, I have never felt something like losing you.. On Eid day when I wait for you and you not come; then it is the birth of my tears and sadness with the joy of Eid”, those words tighten the pain inside Om-Saeed heart whose was not out of pain sense she lost her husband who got martyred he day Jiser-Alshogure got liberated, and with the death of her youngest son Alaa , who died of wounds due to a Russian raid in the city ; this also increased her grieve, she said: ” my eyes still can see him jumping here , there playing and joking with his brothers .. holding me in gentleness telling me ” I am hungry”.
“I buried my happiness where he was buried, I took my wounds inside me.. I abandoned my home and displaced to another place fearing raids saving my children’s lives”she proceeded her talk with her neighbor. She is living now in a camp in Attmeh by the Syrian borders and accompanied by her old father and mother working on supporting her three children with few money she earns from a charity for teaching the children of the camp physics.
Om-Saeed’s condition is similar to thousands’ of Syrians who are trying to reconstruct what has left of strength in them to face more difficulties, maybe what will the brutal circumstances of war force. With Eid being soon, pains and suffering increase more, ” Be patient dear you have other sons and they need you to be strong .. what is the fault of these children when Eid comes where they doubly deprived from their father and also the joy of Eid”, she calmed down after hearing these words of her neighbor; she knows that she finds solidarity in her neighbor. Despite the misery and pains she faces being far away from her home and losing her husband and son, however, the mercy between people who share the refuge decrease a little the misery, because they are always trying to live together as one family as possible they can.
The majority of families in the camp have agreed on forgetting a little their pain and compensate the children’s sadness being far away from home with little happiness and joy celebrating Eid coming by making cakes from the foodstuff distributed in aids.
Syrians are completely aware of the fact that what they are going through is ordeal and it must be coming to an end, ” we should not show fear and depression to our children, besides we should not kill the joy of Eid in their hearts as regime dose in besieged areas in Syria”, this was the last Om-saeed said to one media network which portrayed the preparations of citizens for Eids. Despite the sadness in the Syrian cities and towns, inside them there is still a hope to come back home after getting off the war fires which burned happiness and safety feelings they were blessed with.
By Hoda Mohammad
Translated by Sabah Najem
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