Fear, sadness and concerns about the future are confusing feelings worrying the Syrians, but they become worse more being added to the refuging circumstances for bitterness of living in the war taking place on the Syrian land is more harsh than abandoning the home and land against one’s will due to shelling and destruction.
Amal who was a teacher of art subject in regime schools in Aleppo and aged 37 years, has abandoned stability, her job and even her dreams for fearing regime’s brutality and arrestments which destroyed so many Syrian families causing more tragedies to be added to the record of suffering the Syrians are going through.
Amal narrated her story: “The best solution to me was displacement heading liberated areas due to concerns about my daughters’ lives on one hand and on my husband and son on the other hand where these concerns forbidden me from psychological relief. We always acclimated with pressures of life since my husband, son and I were working, but after my husband’s injury in a Russian raid in Aleppo countryside which has led to total incapacitate; so life pressures increased on us”.
She said: ” what I earn dose not cover our daily basic needs or afford my husband medicine and that is why I tried to compensate the lack of money by working at home with sewing after I get back from the workshop of dressmaking in which I work for long hours, besides what my son earns is too few; he work anything earning him some money even the tiring physical work. Despite all that, we can not still afford al what we need”.
Amal’s circumstances is not better than other families who are seeking refuge cause the high prices because of the siege forced by regime on many areas in Aleppo increased the suffering and the harsh circumstances Syrians are living particularly those suffering displacement.
Studying to the Syrian students becomes a dream to so many Syrians but considering the miserable security state in Syria makes it more difficult dream.
She stopped crying and said: ” My son has been accepted in a Turkish university receiving a scholarship from it. Is it fair to forbidden him from this opportunity to further his studies? But accepting this scholarship means denying the family the money saved by his work next to extra spending we can not afford”.
Amal is losing her health day after day due to the pressure of long hours of work losing any sense of happiness being unable to spend some time with her family.
The suffering of Syrians in refuge are increasing with new obstacles forced with winter coming soon. Amal proceeded narrating her miseries and blight: “winter is bringing new suffering, I have no more physical power to earn more money; to buy oil for heating besides I can not use wood for warming because my daughter from asthma”.
She breathed deeply and said ending her talk: ” Is war coming to an end? I do not know for who long I stand against these pressures?”
She covered her face and gave up to the strong desire to cry.
Amal’s family’s suffering represents the miseries of thousand Syrian families in the circumstances of war and seeking refuge. They may lost hope to live on their Homeland Syria, but the will to stand against the tyrant regime remains with a belief in revolution goals; this makes Syrians take more suffering.
By Hoda Muhammad
Translated by Sabah Najem
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